Getting Situated

I can't think. My mind is constantly going. It seems that I'm still trying to sort through the past few months. It's like I'm still trying to get situated...

IN MY HOME
- Is this really my home? That's what I keep asking myself. It's definitely my furniture, but it's still hard to believe it's my home. Of course, the money that's being taken out of my account every 2 weeks certainly says it's my home. There are still pictures to be put on the walls, draperies to be bought/made, areas to organize...it's just a matter of finding time and having the energy. By the time I get home from work and practice piano, I just want to rest.

IN MY HEALTH
- Since I last wrote I have contacted a nutritionist from London, England, who is the author of the book, "Endometriosis: A Guide to Healing and Fertility Through Nutrition." She has put me on a new eating plan (cutting out wheat, no refined sugars, goat's dairy rather than cow's dairy), vitamin supplements etc. I was doing well until this past week (added stress and unfortunately I like to eat foods that aren't good for me when I'm stressed). I can feel it in my body. I'm tired all of the time when I don't eat right. I have to get back on track. This nutritionist really is amazing and was certainly a God-send. I'm also looking into another option to help with my health. It's been good for me to learn more about my body and how it works even if it is frustrating at times. It's neat to learn about how in some ways the body can heal itself if it's given the right tools to do so! I don't really hope for pregnancy now, I just hope for no pain, and hope for children to come in God's way and in God's timing. That's not to say I never wish to get pregnant, it's just that hoping can hurt sometimes, and I just had to hand it over to God and say, "Here's my body. Do with it as you wish."

IN MY CLOTHES
- Yes you've heard correctly - in my clothes. Since I've started eating better I've been loosing weight. Please don't panic. I've lost 15 pounds, but I now weigh what I did when I got married 5 years ago. Who knew? I figured my weight gain had to do with metabolism slowing down due to age and that the "Brown" hips would continue to grow and expand throughout the course of my life. All along it had to do with too much bread and sugar! HA! I fit into a size 5 skirt, and I could hardly believe it. Now, all of the clothes I bought this past year from having gained more weight (stress!) are too big because I've lost the weight I gained altogether over the last 5 years. It's crazy!

IN MY BLOG
- I'd like to change my picture or get rid of it, but I just can't figure it out. I ran out of patience this evening for fear I wouldn't have time to write afterwards. Help!

IN MY COMMUNITY
- After living in one spot for 5 years you get accustomed to certain places, people, things...Sussex is a lot bigger than Perth-Andover. I like the convenience it has, but I'm still trying to figure out how I can get involved in the community. I'm still trying to get situated. I really miss working with small children, so I'm contemplating volunteering at the public school or tutoring after I get into some form of routine. I need to try and get to know my neighbours too (except for the ones behind me - ha! ha! i.e. Mom and Dad)

IN MY JOB
- I enjoy working at Bethany. I will confess that is an adjustment for the gal who loves teaching. The first few weeks I cried at night and thought I must be crazy. "What am I doing?" I knew what I wanted to do when I finished high school. There was no second guessing myself. With my new position as Admissions Coordinator, I love the learning curve. I love trying to get things organized and discovering ways to make data collection more efficient. I love being able to go home at night and leave my work at the office. I love having my weekends. It is a big change in my life though, and there are a lot of things that I'm trying to work through that I know the Lord wants me to work through. It's complicated. I'll leave it at that. Let's just say that I know I'm supposed to be where I am at this point and time.

IN MY PRAYER LIFE
- This is an area that needs some definite refining more than ever...especially concerning my current life circumstances!


Trying to get situated isn't necessarily a bad thing. It just takes time. I'm just in mourning right now. Indeed. I miss my sister and the kids. I miss my church family. I miss Andover Elementary and the staff. My life here is good. I just need some time to...get situated.